Sam Shepard Directs The Late Henry Moss
I watched a documentary the other day called This So-Called Disaster: Sam Shepard Directs the Late Henry Moss. I wanted to see something of the man Moses has made a subconscious Mentor of. Didn’t want to see his movies because he is only an actor in them. No, I wanted to see the real person.
The documentary shows a man directing his own play. Nowhere in it does he ramble off large speeches. He listens more than anything. He watches. It would appear that Moses’ dream shaman was a creation all his own. I didn’t need a documentary to figure that one out. I did find the real man more interesting than the dream version.
But at least Moses has a mentor, real or make believe, an influence that focuses his life. Me? I am not really drawn to icons. I already have too many unattainable influences in my life. I prefer the real and the now.
Outside of Moses’ circle, I have one friend and one confidant. Friend? FBI Special Agent Jessica Abrams. Yes, Melanie you are correct. We have a friendship of sorts. I may be a professional responsibility to her but she has given me focus. At least in memory, I have no experience with a sister but that is how I think of Jessie. The older sister I may have had but will never know.
My confidant? My shrink. Yes. Therapy. That wasn’t hard to figure out either. Jessie set this up. Once a week I take a train into New York to see my therapist. Why New York and not someone local? Jessie thought I needed to get out of my home turf once in a while and this guy is a specialist in people who pop out of nowhere with no memories.
Why tell you all this? My therapist thinks it will be good for me. So I comply.
Sanity? I don’t dream like Moses but I see things differently – two worlds at once. I’m not sure which is the real and which the made up.
Mentors? Yes. One. Icons? None, except Moses himself. Demons? I face them once a week in New York.
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He is gone.
I waited until I posted his final message. But he dissappeared four days ago. The FBI still tell me he is not a wanted man. But they do wish to know where he is.
He was questioned. Tested. And then vanished. The tests evidently were simliar to what Oliver went through.
I wonder what the results of his DNA were .
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He’s fine. Moses called from Salt Lake City to let me know he was alright. It had never occurred to him that disappearing after a missing child resurfaces 24 years later might peak the FBI’s curiosity. He “turned” himself in at the Salt Lake City office of the FBI after checking his blog. He had been “unplugged” for an entire month. The idea that Oliver and I were dealing with the FBI was very disconcerting.
He told me, “I’m fine. I am not in trouble. They just want to ask some questions.” Moses also said that he would rather know the truth rather than follow dreams and crazy theories. If he’s a monster who somehow kidnapped Oliver and hid him away for all those years, better to know than to stumble around in the dark looking for answers.
I know he is no monster. The timeline does not fit. Oliver disappeared when he was eight. That would make him 32. The Oliver now, although I can see him only as my son, can’t be more that twenty-five or twenty-six. Time shift? That concept is far beyond my abilities.
Moses faxed some handwritten pages to me, notes from his travels. I will type them up and post as soon as I can.
I wonder if they will check Moses’ DNA, too. If so, what would they find?
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It’s been a month today. Not a word. The FBI said he had been seen in St. Louis and then his credit card was used in New Mexico. Did I know where he might have gone other than that stretch of desert road in Arizona? They had already checked that out. I was truthful. I have no idea where Moses Haygood is.
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Still no word from Moses. The FBI has assured me that he is only a “person of interest” and not a suspect. Although, a suspect of what? Kidnapping 22 years ago and then putting an entire fabrication of his life up on the web? I think we all know that Moses, while intelligent, is not a criminal master mind.
I have spoken with Ray. He saw Moses at the spot; that desert place where little boys disappear and full grown men reappear. Ray told me Moses stayed there for a day or two and then moved on. No word of his intentions other than to keep moving. Moses is still looking but seems to think his answers are out there, not here. I have no opinion on that. I just hope he is alright.
Oliver has been spending more time at Moses’ house. He sleeps there now. I can’t help but feel hurt. I know he is putting things together in his mind and sometimes the normalcy of dinner in front of the television gets in the way of that. I’ve had him back for only a month and I already feel like an empty nester. But, I give him space. Maybe he can make the “time machine” work.
I hope Moses comes in if only for a moment. I take the FBI at their word but who knows how long Moses will be a “person of interest” if he remains hidden.
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Carrying on Moses’ work also includes this forum. We have been busy trying to “establish” Oliver’s identity. Moses did not make it easy leaving as he did. The FBI contacted us. Evidently our postings were monitored. We have been ushered through this process by Agent Jessie (short for Jessica) Abrams. She has been professional yet at the same time comforting. I suppose that is her strength in cases like this.
1) DNA Test: I kept Oliver’s baby teeth. The FBI used one as a sample to test against. Current Oliver’s DNA is similar enough for a match but with enough differing anomalies to raise questions.
2) Finger Prints: Again, similar yet questionable. I have an art project Oliver did as a child. It was a turkey made from multiple fingerprints in ink. Again … a sample for comparison.
The FBI want to question Moses. Oliver’s case was never closed and evidently neither was Moses’ appearance. The re-emergence of Oliver stirred a pot none of us was aware still boiled. Anyway, Oliver lives with me, now. We’ve been able to get him a driver’s license and a social security card. He spends most of his time at Moses’ house. Granted, under the FBI’s supervision, but Oliver feels more “connected” there than at my apartment.
I have gone back to work and Oliver reads through the Moses’ mountain of notes. We meet up at night. We eat. We watch TV. It is normal. Sort of.
Moses has not contacted me. I have no idea where he is. I don’t know if he is the subject of some manhunt, either. Jessie is only so forth coming. I am grateful they have not kept me from posting on his site. Anyway, this is his portal; Moses’ story continues here. I just do not know where it will lead.
P.S. I write because I don’t feel like facing the world. Video was Moses’ tool. I may return to it. I may not. For now, words will suffice as my images.
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